Back to zero

e h h c h h e. And now back to zero. What's next? Stagnant zero? Or even to negative? Sigh..Honestly I really don't care anymore. Over time I've learned the art of being numb.

For almost 21 years, I'd been in good terms with you. And now I just asked for one last thing but you still didn't hear me. I'm tired. I am giving up. I realized that no matter what I do I still have no choice on what you choose to give me. So what's the point? It's not that I don't believe in you anymore. I still do, and that is the very reason why I am already letting you do whatever you want. I don't have any say anyway. Now the difference is just that I do not have any inch of hope at all.

Suddenly, it happened so fast
I couldn’t believe the news that I received
My heart stopped as I hit the floor
I fell to my knees cryin’, "Lord, help me"

No matter what times brings
Or the changes we go through in life
There’s some things
That we just can’t prepare for

I'm logging out now. My head really aches for n straight tearful and sleepless nights.